Last of the garden, or, well, this is already gone…

September 04, 2008

Heyyyy! Lots of thanks to Rebee and Caroline for linking to some of my recent posts! Those were my first two pingbacks EVER. I was so excited my eyes misted over.

And, I hope you’ll all forgive me for not posting a 1000-word essay today; I have a 1500 word paper due tomorrow for a class. Yay papers! I’m so excited.

Now, the daily photo—

Remember my unforeseeable gardening adventures? Well apparently I took a picture of the plant before digging it out.

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Yeah. This is what I had to deal with. I really hate these plants. There’s another one still in another place in the garden. And also, we had started cutting it back already, so it’s not QUITE as big in the picture as it was all summer.

And there you have it, folks! Triumph over adversity. ‘Til tomorrow.

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Last glances at the garden: Peppers

September 03, 2008

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Sarah Palin: A Horror.

September 03, 2008

(Disclaimer: Very long post of 1147 words and counting. Please be advised to either a) keep scrolling and find a picture of broccoli underneath or b) wait until later when I post another garden picture, if you’re not at all interested in one college kid/feminist/eco-freak’s take on the Republican VP pick.)

I am in the most unfortunate position of having found the only group of people on campus that doesn’t care to talk about politics. Maybe not the only group, but indeed one of the few. I’ve heard a lot about Governor Sarah Palin the last few days, but absolutely no comments from the group I am most often with, try as I might to introduce the subject. Thus, Sunbeam Soapbox is going to have to deal with some of my political discussions and leanings.

My first impression of Palin as McCain’s choice of running mate was, “Huh. He picked a woman. This race is truly historic in every way now.” It amazes me that no matter which of the two candidates are voted in, the new Presidency will have broken out of the “old boy’s school” form of politics. There will either be a black man or a woman as vice presidency. Wow!

I’m also impressed by the idea of a mother in charge of a country. While motherhood is not a career I aspire to, I can respect how much dedication and patience it takes. Men in our society tend to have dropped the ball on fatherhood, and leave all parenting to the mothers, so that politicians have no idea about parenting. And government can benefit from the experiences of parenting I’m sure.

That said, the more I learn about Palin, the more I am horrified by her as a choice of running mate.

Now let’s step back a moment. First, a little bit about my political leanings: Yes, I lean to the left. Yes, I am a registered Democrat (though I’m not entirely sure if I agree completely with them—I just wanted to be able to vote for the primary). However, I think we can benefit from having a wide variety of parties and people/politicians that are open to new ideas and can form a more perfect Union from the varying ideologies. There are very few things I believe to be “evil” (I saw a shirt today that said “Ban A Republican”; I highly disagree that one party or the other should be banned or blamed or held as bad), and the Republican party seems to be stepping away from those platforms that I believe unacceptable.

The first platform I hold entirely unacceptable is this: holding the life of a fetus with more respect than the life of the woman carrying the fetus (/parasite). I am, as they say insultingly, pro-abortion. (Or pro-choice. Whatever floats your boat—I just want abortion procedures to stay safe and legal.) Most especially in cases of rape or incest, even so when the woman’s world is not conducive to bringing up a child in, and acceptable when all other methods of birth control have been exhausted and there is still a parasite growing in her. Yes, I am not a mother in any sense of the word, can you tell? Some women just aren’t mothers, and forcing them to be shows a deep lack of respect for half of the entire population. (As well as their unwanted children. I highly doubt we want unwanted children around. That just creates more problems.) That we still can’t respect people in general horrifies me.

And, of course, our lovely new VP candidate won’t even allow into her mind abortions in the case of rape or incest. I can’t even begin to find words for how disturbing that is.

The second thing I believe strongly in and can’t believe others disbelieve, is the existence of global warming. Now, I’m not here to tell politicians to TAKE MORE ACTION to counter global warming; I believe the process of politics at the moment can’t handle the problem of global warming and therefore go on in my own way and join movements of people that work to create change within their society, not government. But I want the politicians to stay out of my way, not make more problems. This Governor of Alaska favors drilling in the Arctic Wildlife Refuge. I didn’t even think that was POSSIBLE for the Governor of Alaska. I like to compare it to the idea of opening drilling along the California coast: I can’t imagine someone from California, someone who enjoys our coasts, that would favor drilling there.

Of course, they exist too. The mind boggles.

These aren’t the only reasons I worry about Sarah Palin as VP, however. These are only the issues I stand immobilized on.

I dislike that, because she is also a woman, she is supposed to attract the disillusioned Clinton supporters. I hope that all Clinton supporters with half a brain stay home rather than vote, if they dislike Obama that much: these two women are night and day. Yes, Republicans, you heard me right: one woman does NOT equate another. Woman aren’t a different species and do have separate personalities, just as men do. This just goes back to the reproductive rights argument— my god! We haven’t gotten anywhere have we! Women STILL are treated as subhuman! I need to brush up on my feminist movements.

As for her daughter’s current pregnancy proving that the youngest is Palin’s: so, uh, am I really the only person who still cringes when she thinks of poor kids with uncles/aunts only a few months older than they? as well as teen pregnancy? I am really anti-teen-pregnancy. To the point of nausea when thinking of the subject. Palin’s attitude, though, is almost as if we’re endorsing it. What ever happened to good ol’ no sex before marriage?!

(That was a joke, sorta.)

I read somewhere else that pushing your daughter into the spotlight is a really bad way of proving that your kid’s your kid. Read that argument for yourself.

We’ve opened a floodgate of information to a person I’ve never heard of before, and everything I learn worries me. Maybe I read too much from the more left-leaning press. But I can’t believe some of the things I’ve heard. I can’t believe that makes her a good candidate. I’ve heard people say, “I like her”, but not qualify why. Not even, “Oh, just a gut reaction” (which is most of my reasoning for supporting Obama instead of Clinton). I want to figure out what makes her likable, because I sure can’t figure out why in the world she was picked for VP.

As a final point, if I could write this much in half an hour for my first paper due Friday, I would be done in an hour. Why, why, why does the writing fail me in my academics?!!

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Last glances at the garden: Broccoli

September 02, 2008

Let’s put more pictures in here, shall we?

mmm yummy broccoli

I spoke with my mom yesterday, and she said she will mail my box of yarn and camera cord TODAY. In honor of that I thought I would do a daily picture post, of the last few pictures of my dad’s garden that I have on my computer. There will be one a day until the day that my package comes, and on that last day there will be whatever pictures I have left. So if there’s only one, you’ll know it’s the last because I will FINALLY have my stuff and will post knitting pictures the next day. Let’s hope it doesn’t get that bad. If there are multiple garden pictures, though, that will be the last of them and it will be time for pictures of finished objects and current works in progress. Woo hoo!

Does this mean I won’t be writing these next few days? I don’t know. Probably not. Can you handle two posts from me a day, one in the afternoon and a picture in the evening? Because that will probably happen. I love writing too much to stop, it seems. Is that a bad thing?

Let’s even make this a challenge. See if I can post something every day for all of September, as if in anticipation of a year of creativity. And if it works, stretch it into October. And then November! National Blog Posting Month. I love that challenge.

Rebee mentioned in the comments of my last post that blogging was one of my creative outlets, and she’s right. Here’s to Blogging. ♥

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Heart to heart: Creativity, or lack thereof.

September 01, 2008

As a question for a blog contest, Rebekkah Bowerbird Knits chose to ask everyone a fascinating, but difficult (for me, at least) question: How will you challenge yourself creativity in the next year?

And it seems even, like the right time of the year for a question like this: for many people, because of the school year, the beginning of September feels like a new year (I know I never deal with new year resolutions in January—whatever I want resolved, it normally happens during the school year). And yet, it also seems like Spring should be the time for creative resolutions. The time of new beginnings, after all. But if September feels right, shouldn’t that be right? Yes. (I just need to tell myself that.)

So. It’s time to think up some creative resolutions.

This is something that I have always had a hard time with. When I was little, I wanted to be an artist. Or a writer. Or and artist AND a writer. Those together have been my secret dream for, well, ever. But after, say, seventh grade, I had to harden myself away from that dream, because for some reason I could never be creative enough to have any Ideas. Since denying myself my dreams, and denying that I could have the ability to achieve those dreams, my Ideas have come fewer and fewer between. I used to fill notebooks with little ideas and squiggles, and now I can only stare at them blankly. It got so bad that I can’t even look at those notebooks anymore. They’re too sad.

I’m not really a creative person anymore. Yes, I knit and I’ve tried to sew. But I stick to patterns, to pre-formulated ideas. I don’t make up my own. I’ve restricted myself too much to perfectionism to try that.

And I’ve resigned myself to it, much as I secretly hope to become a famous writer. (okay, I don’t hope for that much. I just want to enjoy writing fiction again. I still highly enjoy writing nonfiction, like blog entries and even newspaper opinion pieces.)

A question about what I want to accomplish creatively in the next year… it’s a good one, for any year, really. Why can’t I take back my creativity, after all? Isn’t it still there, like an unused muscle, waiting for me to use it, just like my real muscles? If I can use my real muscles after years of neglect, why can’t I use my creative one?

But what do I do? I will be in EUROPE for six months of next year. It’s not like I can bring my life with me overseas. What is a portable enough creative endeavor that I can focus on while I’m trying to absorb another culture?

Why do I always give myself excuses instead of things to do?

There are mountains of things I’d like to be able to do. Garden, understand soapmaking, candlemaking, all the uses of beeswax, meditate, yoga, not have an asthma attack after biking two blocks at home. There is a myriad of interesting things for me to stick my nose into. The few things that I will? I don’t know. It seems futile to try anything these days. Yes, I will try biking, exercising, and gardening. But I won’t be able to take all those things with me as I travel all the time. I am afraid of drawing and writing. What if it’s not fun? What if I just can’t do it?

What kind of left-hander am I, that can’t express creativity?

This has become a long post, and one that’s gotten nowhere so far. It’s time for results. I’ve thought about this long enough. I’ve made excuses long enough. I should just pick something. That’s the point of creativity, isn’t it? It goes well with spontaneity, not with long-term planning. So, something spontaneous it will be.

My creative goal for the year: an idea that’s been brewing underneath for a few months now. I’ve thought about putting it into practice with my last two excursions to Europe, but I hadn’t actually done it. This time, maybe I will: I want to take plenty of pictures while I’m in Europe, and when I come back, I want to turn those pictures into a scrapbook. And not a boring one where you just shove the pictures into the albums, but an album I’ve made myself. With a decorated cover and notes and letters and ideas scribbled all over the pages. I want a tangible way to look back and smile at the places I’ve been and the memories I’ve made, and I want it to make me smile at the fact that I can be creative when I put my heart to it.

There. That’s it. It’s out and I never planned on it but now you have to keep me beholden to it. What do you think?

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A little bit of random on your Sunday evening

August 31, 2008

I bought 8 skeins of Ultra Alpaca, thinking the eighth was the good-luck skein.

Since hearing that Caroline is only using 4 for her February Lady Sweater, I’ve been thinking about how much I have. I started browsing Ravelry to see how many skeins people used of this for various sweaters.

Guys, someone made a 40.5″ Tilted Duster in just 6 skeins.

I am SO going to have extra yarn. Like 3 skeins extra. I am going to have to make a lot of gifts out of it. I’ll match people!

So today I went to the community garden and helped harvest—more green beans! Yay. And ground cherries (ever heard of THOSE before? I didn’t think so), some peppers, and tomatoes. Why am I not over-ecstatic about the tomatoes? Except for the lemon cherry tomatoes, they all had Blossom End Rot. :( So sad. Kind of grosssss. At least now I know what it looks like. Here’s hoping the lime treatment we added will make it better.

The people there really know what they’re doing. I’m excited to join them. Also, the meeting was at 2pm, basically lunchtime, so I got fresh food for lunch! Whatever the members don’t eat gets sold to the cafeteria, so hopefully I’ll see some of the food there.

Oh yeah, and my mom hasn’t sent my package yet. She will be hearing from me tomorrow. She will be hearing from meeee.

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What to do when you’re bored at school

August 30, 2008

What do you do when your favorite source of procrastination (the Internet, in this case) is, well, boring?

You look for other activities, right? Maybe you’ll bake something. Or clean the kitchen, which once again is a mess. But what if you don’t have an oven to bake in or a kitchen to clean? Then you’ll try something else. Maybe you want to watch your next Netflix DVD. And yet, even though they say you’ll get it Friday, it’s ten minutes before the post office closes and your mailbox is STILL empty! Perhaps, then, you’ll want to knit, since knitting is fun and keeps your mind occupied, with the right amount of challenge. But what if you want to space out your knitting time because it looks like you’re going to need another skein sooner rather than later because knitting the cable is so fun and you just keep going and going and going but you want to switch skeins after the cable is done, but the rest of the skeins are in a package either not send yet or on its way to you, and the other knitting you have is just plain boring cream-colored stockinette?

What then?

Then, you turn to homework as your principal source of amusement.

Insert loud collective gasp here.

I got up at 9 today (early for anyone around here I know). By 11 I was sufficiently awake and breakfasted. From 11 to 2 I couldn’t figure out what else to do besides homework so I finished about half of it. Before 2p.m. on a Saturday. I know. I’m screwed for the rest of the weekend. At two I decided to walk down to the nearest yarn store and buy some circular needles (necessary for my sweater, soon as more yarny reinforcements arrive). The walk was about an hour long, probably helped by my stopping often to look at different stores on the way there. I just can’t seem to keep going. I guess that’s the part of me that pretends to be spontaneous. After spending 5 minutes in the yarn store, though, I was out already. Why make myself want things I can’t have? Limit the exposure.

Then I caught a bus and was back at school in five minutes.

Apparently I walk much slower than a bus drives.

I have a great bakery right next to school and I think I should go there more often. However, I shouldn’t pair their breads with more-expensive under-ripe raspberries. Tomorrow, I’m going to check out the gardening club. Have you heard of lemon cherry tomatoes? They taste like lemon but they’re tomatoes!

I can’t wait to get involved in the gardening/food sustainability club. It is going to be awesome. So much better than the environmental group on campus. (I hope.)

Was that random enough for ya?

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Prepping for NaBloPoMo

August 27, 2008

Did I say I’d write less this week? I meant more, but less pictures. Apparently when I’m stressed I need to write. And argh, I am STRESSED. I need to find a fourth class and all of them are full or during my German class (which will NOT be dropped).

So, on the environmentally-friendly front, two days before I left home, my parents dropped the idea of getting chickens on my brother and me. Geez. You think you’re the one behind all the change in the household, then someone else goes and drops a bombshell on you. And we thought the S. Family Menagerie was complete (a dog, two cats, and a snake currently occupy it; the bearded dragon should have left by now). I think it’s a GREAT idea. Takes care of all the disgusting snails when it rains and then Dad doesn’t have to buy chicken manure for the garden all the time! Plus, fresh eggs in the morning sound like they’re FTW.

Why haven’t I blocked them mittens yet? I am SO stressing over finding a fourth class. I don’t want to take computer science, which I’m signed up for, and I’ve found a replacement for that. However, that means I still need a fourth class. I thought about Japanese. Need to take a placement test, and probably will place into next semester’s class. I think Sociolinguistics is a GREAT idea, which my dad found. However, even though it’s supposed to be offered in the fall, it’s not being offered. Then, anything else I could take is either full or at the same time as German. And I want a humanities class, or maybe social science, but not math/science. aka, I’m screwed.

I’ve been poring over the class schedule for the fall. Clenching my teeth. Activating my TMJ. I do not feel good. On the bright side, an iced tea is only $1.50, and a much better way to relax, sitting in a coffee shop, than going back to my room. Why didn’t I figure this out sooner?

I want SOCIOLINGUISTICS!!!!!! >_< Maybe transferring isn’t such a bad idea after all.

ETA-yup. Camera cord is at home. So REALLY no pictures for a while. Not that long, possibly Monday. Also, who thinks I should take Indian Philosophies? Raise your hands.

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The Glitten Factory Closes

August 26, 2008

The glittens are done, long live the glittens!

They need blocking. I’ll do that in the morning. Three days over deadline isn’t too bad is it? This whole “deadline” thing? I’m pretty awful at it. No wonder I don’t knit Christmas presents.

Also, my camera cord may be home. In light of this possibility, I’ll tell you that Fall Back is also finished as of today and therefore I have no more knitting projects. GASP, SHOCK, HORROR. I’m going to go play with my new toy and start a pair of socks (again). Plain vanilla (but cream-colored) for my grandma, though with a tubular cast-on edge for stretchiness.

And then, a sweater.

And then, the world.

(See my 17 things below.)

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17 Things

August 26, 2008

I told my dad that I have Too Much Stuff. He didn’t believe me.

I think that’s really saying something about the consumer culture we’re in, that I, who has barely any clothes compared to most people, not a whole lot of yarn, but maybe more books than the average person, can be disbelieved when I say I have Too Much Stuff. Also, I’m packing it into the smallest room imaginable for four months.

My new dorm room is the tiniest thing on the face of existence.

17 things I can’t live without, as stolen from Rebee. (I’m turning it into a meme neener neener neener!) Sure to put a smile on the face:

1. Love. I think the only reason I survived last year was because I knew my family loved me and wanted to see me again.
2. Tea. I just got into this recently, like last year. But a world without tea seems like madness.
3. Star Trek: The Next Generation. Or Voyager. Voyager is a recent can’t-live-without.
4. E-mail. Send me more, more, mooore! I only get boring e-mails sent to the masses lately it seems. :(
5. Sunlight.
6. Short hair.
7. Charming clothes and knitting patterns.
8. My two cats, Pepper and Sugar. If one of them died unexpectedly, I don’t know how I’d be able to live.
9. Paper and pencils. Colored pencils. Those are hard to be away from.
10. This is getting harder. I think I’m skipping #10.
11. Music. Time to set up my speakers.
12. Louise Glück. Apparently I can’t live without her poetry.
13. Yellow and orange.
14. Airplanes. I just like traveling too much.
15. Contacts, because I hate not being able to see out the corner of my eyes with glasses.
16. A fire on a cold, grey day.
17. Green grass running through my toes and wind whipping through my hair.

So. What’s your 17 things?

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